Hello
World.
My doctor’s
appointment was today and I hated every moment of it. I absolutely HATE hospitals and doctors, and
none of that hate has anything to do with my being a schizotypal. I’ve just always found doctors to be
extremely irritating and stupid.
Hospitals scare me. Period. No more to explain really. Anyway, the appointment went well despite my
resistance to even get out of the car.
The doctor didn’t find anything wrong with me. What a big surprise there. Riley was acting really paranoid for some
reason and asked the doctor if there was anything I could take to prevent my
coughing fits. The doctor explained some
random prescription and wrote a note for the pharmacy so that we could go pick
up the pills. I’m not fucking taking
those pills. I hate pills. I used to be so tripped up on all the
anti-anxiety and anti-paranoia pills I used to take when my Schizotypy symptoms
would get really bad. Sometimes my
parents would even force me to take a sedative pill when I was being really
hostile, or even when they would be paranoid that I was going to hurt
them. Some parents right? I don’t even care that it’s a pill for
coughing fits. I’m never taking a single
pill ever again.
The ride
home was very awkward. Riley hardly said
anything, and he didn’t even look at me.
In fact he has been mildly avoiding me ever since he caught me coughing up
blood in the sink. I don’t know what the
hell his deal is but whatever. If he
thinks that I’m going to hurt him then he’s dead wrong. I’d never hurt Riley, and in fact I’ve never
had violent fantasies about him anyway so yeah…
That had better
not change…
~Willow
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